she goes at the top because i love her so much. she's sweet and funny and so pretty. <3 i love that i get to live with her and hang out with her everyday :-)
god i love the goth scene. well ok. older goths some of you 20 year olds are annoying. anyway my fave music genres... i could talk about them all day.
i think they're awesome. i want to beat my computer with a rock sometimes but thats ok <3
fuck the modern web design sphere for real. i love how clunky shit used to look !!! no clean interfaces just stuff on a page.
I do NOT read enough but they're lowkey awesome. everyone read johnny the homicidal maniac and lenore NOW
unpopular op outside the cool transsexual/gender hemisphere but they are just so fucking based. literally one of my favorite out of the commonly used ones. everything about it/its is so based - i love it so much. for me personally - as someone who feels as though they are slightly removed from the maschine, or a corpse... love it being used on me. <3
i don't give a fuck about the english language and i'm a silly transsexual forever and ever man.
i just really like anatomy and i'm curious. i think bones are awesome. i'm way more normal about it than i was when i put this here at 18 though, LOL
okay this definitely ties in with my male manipulator lover bullshit and the fact i have literally had marilyn manson as a special interest. but please be mean to me actually and do fun cool destructive shit it's so fucking fun. (but at the same time I get why this is not popular - these men most of the time have terrible bigoted views xP) but like damn!!! at least make 3 albums about how much you hate the modern day bush equivalent or smth lolz
2023 note: i'm not so much insane about self-harm and general destruction onstage (such as ogre of skinny puppy slicing himself) as i was when i originally made this (now slightly edited) section at 18 - but i do think it's gorgeous when it's done as an authentic artistic expresssion or desire and i still love the rest of the personality that goes along with it, as fucked up as it is.
okay this definitely ties in with my male manipulator lover bullshit and the fact i have literally had marilyn manson as a special interest. but please be mean to me actually and do fun cool destructive shit it's so fucking fun. (but at the same time I get why this is not popular - these men most of the time have terrible bigoted views xP) but like damn!!! at least make 3 albums about how much you hate the modern day bush equivalent or smth lolz
2023 note: i'm not so much insane about self-harm and general destruction onstage (such as ogre of skinny puppy slicing himself) as i was when i originally made this (now slightly edited) section at 18 - but i do think it's gorgeous when it's done as an authentic artistic expresssion or desire and i still love the rest of the personality that goes along with it, as fucked up as it is.
these mfs get their own section because it's one of my fave looks ever. the dance is just so mwah. also hot sexy music fr. like suicide commando, eisenfunk, noisuf-x are all my beloveds.
<he has peed on so much of my stuff (including my laptop....) so its definitely the brain worms here but hes such a cutie !!! mwehehehe. hes also super fucking stupid and its hilarious he has no brain in that skull...its basically just trash like GIR.
2021 EDIT: he has since died from liver cancer. :( rest in peace my dear kitty, you were the best little guy ever.
being a tranny (and a fag ofc) is actually awesome in some ways. like yeah there is some parts i hate about it but overall ? i love being silly and genderfucky with it.
literally one of my favorite words. I absolutely prefer it over transgender for me personally - i don't see my gender as changed, rather my sex has been - through the process of medical transition. I'm really more on the radical side gender-wise and I do absolutely think we should fight the notion your physical sex is a completely immutable characteristic that Can Never Changed. I mean, seriously, is a trans woman post SRS and on estrogen really of the male sex? Can she, upon inspection, be assigned male in that state? She may not have a uterus or whatever but she's not that different from a cis woman with a hysterectomy at that point aside from chromosomally. And frankly, pratically nobody looks at chromosomes to assign sex at birth anyway. But aside from that, I also prefer transsexual due to the fact it does suggest the idea of medical transition more than transgender does these days, at least inside the community. Also it's just frankly a fucking nice word. <<
i got obsessed with saying "girlswag" a year ago and i still think it's cool as hell so its going here. girlswag... i love girls :)
if you hate math fuck off. i don't love every part obviously but i find a lot of higher level math interesting, especially the parts more relevant to computer science (like formal logic).
this one is kinda silly but yea. as a former #lonerguycore who honestly never really hung out with people (not to say I had zero friends ever I just was not very socialable so didn't think to hang out with people much...) I honestly love my friends. they're so based. absolutely love getting to hang out with them and do shit like play DDR ^_^
also would like to give a shoutout here to people who I don't hang out with anymore but still keep in touch with occasionally + follow online they are all so based too. people are epic actually
and fuck mfs who spread that shit fr LOL
man fuck the inability to design your shit. it's cringefail i think we should go back to making shitty html pages.
this is probably a mixture of being bullied as a kid and my ultra-cynism during a crucial time in my development but i just Do Not Like It. I would much rather mfs be honest + mean to me instead of hitting me with this lovey-dovey bullshit that feels fake as fuck (even when it isn't). obviously i recognize some ppl are naturally bubbly and positive but i'm a grumpy old bastard. (dont take this too seriously if u are actually just very positive)
FUCKING GENTRIFIERS MAN. they'll come in and wash all the culture of the spots they move into and turn in into some replica of everywhere else they've touched. [PLACE IN THE CITY NEAR ME] used to have so much fucking culture and was a hotspot for the gay community until they started coming in and pushed everyone else out. now its fucking boring and the only good things in that spot are the resale shops and the cool donut shop. also they'll really just make the fakest fucking #activism posts and then do nothing to help minorities. :/
god i hate this godforsaken country.
[leaving my original rant up but thank god i don't deal with this as much anymore.] i have a theory that bad english classes and that one fucking tumblr post about how "omfg sometimes the curtains are just blue" made this problem way worse than it would otherwise. but seriously please do fucking critical analysis oh my fucking god. i don't even care what your conclusions are, but recognizing people have biases in what they write/make (and also just generally what they are trying to say) will 1) make you better at recognizing bigotry and 2) lead you to actually understand wtf people are saying omfg. i do think ppl just take shit no context for funzies tho.
mall goth was an insult for kiddies who bought all their shit from hot topic in the 2000s omfg. it wasn't just some offshoot of goth where u listened to nu metal. that was just popular among alternative teens at the time. also the internet (particularly tiktok -_-) bastardized the style. IT ISN'T STRIPY TIGHTS AND DEMONIAS OMFG. i don't absolutely hate the style bc it's kinda cute (not the best bc i am a modern styles hater) but jesus fucking christ stealing the name of mall goth ???? make up ur own fucking terms, fucknuts. (thankfully enough time has passed where that part of the rant is irrelevant)
centrism is the worst fucking "ideology". "oh but both sides are bad" actually, fun fact political theory is not the american government (or any other goverment really...) the two sides are not the fucking same or "as bad" man fuck you. all centrism does is side with the oppressor (which usually is fascist...) without getting the fucking backlash for it. cringe!
obviously the right are not the only ones who have this belief that cancel culture is bigger than it is, but they're the ones who never stfu about it. fun fact: CANCEL CULTURE IS NOT A REAL PROBLEM. It really isn't. the only people who really ever successfully get "cancelled" are nobodies or popular in left-leaning spaces (which ofc duh...). teenage twitter users complaining about how problematic an artist or whatever is does not seriously impact that person omfg. (not to say there are zero valid criticisms of cancel culture but like. if someone has any sort of institutional power like money or fame they are Uncancellable by virtue of that omfg.)
omg syxri attacks his side for once. anyway this is one of my top leftist (espec tankie...) pet peeves espec bc its almost always white (and probably cis) motherfuckers. like is classism real? yeah duh!! doesn't mean racism/transphobia/other bigotry aren't incredibly important struggles. especially racism. the fucking shit poor (white) people face is nothing compared to the way poc, particularly bipoc are fucking treated wtf
thankfully this has died down now but holy fuck i hate this phrase lol. it's mostly just a pet peeve, but also most of the people who regularly use it are frankly really annoying. also like. i'm "afab" but i absolutely do not have "afab autism". i have malebrained / patrick bateman autism lol. (i am quite terrible at human connections <<)
okay fr though, i just think it's silly and ignores other intersections that cause autism to present in similar ways to that - like race for example. like particularly the masking part - if you're nonwhite and especially if you're black you'll have to mask more than some cis white dude... also it just feels kinda weird to gender it considering that even like. white amab people can fit the "afab autism" style more. also not to mention the bioessentialism.
shut the fuck UPPPP you were not "socialized as afab" what the fuck does that mean. just say you were socialized as a girl. also stop using it as a way to discuss your parts that makes no sense. you can in fact have a vagina and be amab or vice versa. jesus fucking christ. most of these people are unsuprisingly transmisognyist too...
I WILL FOREVER BE SO FUCKING ANNOYED ABOUT THIS. I KNOW MSI IS LIKE GENUINELY #PROBLEMATIC OBVIOUSLY AND I DON'T THINK THEY'RE AMAZING OR WHATEVER (EVEN THOUGH I DO LIKE THEM TBH) BUT LIKE. I REALLY DO NOT THINK THIS BAND SHOULD BE ASSOCIATED WITH LIKE MOTHER MOTHER AND SHIT. THAT FUCKING MSI CRAZE AND SUBSEQUENT FALL FROM GRACE REMOVED IT FROM ITZ SEXY HOT INDUSTRIAL INFLUENCES. JIMMY URINE HAS LITERALLY DONE A SONG WITH FRONT LINE ASSEMBLY. COMBICHRIST HAS REMIXED ONE OF THEIR SONGS. THEY'VE DONE A REMIX OF A KMFDM TRACK. IDK. THERES CLEAR INFLUENCE THERE FROM THE SCENE.
I WILL FOREVER BE SO FUCKING ANNOYED ABOUT THIS. I KNOW MSI IS LIKE GENUINELY #PROBLEMATIC OBVIOUSLY AND I DON'T THINK THEY'RE AMAZING OR WHATEVER (EVEN THOUGH I DO LIKE THEM TBH) BUT LIKE. I REALLY DO NOT THINK THIS BAND SHOULD BE ASSOCIATED WITH LIKE MOTHER MOTHER AND SHIT. THAT FUCKING MSI CRAZE AND SUBSEQUENT FALL FROM GRACE REMOVED IT FROM ITZ SEXY HOT INDUSTRIAL INFLUENCES. JIMMY URINE HAS LITERALLY DONE A SONG WITH FRONT LINE ASSEMBLY. COMBICHRIST HAS REMIXED ONE OF THEIR SONGS. THEY'VE DONE A REMIX OF A KMFDM TRACK. IDK. THERES CLEAR INFLUENCE THERE FROM THE SCENE.
THIS BAND IS FOR FREAKS. HOMOSEXUALS. JTHM FANS. PEOPLE WHO GENUINELY ENJOY THE 2000S EQUAL OPPROTUNITY HUMOR xP. OTHER ASSOCIATED WHITE EDGELORDS OF THE 2000S. NOT LIKE. CHRONICALLY ONLINE CHILDREN WHO WILL CALL YOU ABELIST AND CLASSIST IF YOU TELL THEM TO READ FUCKING THEORY OR SOME SHIT. IDK. I HATE TIKTOK WITH A BURNING PASSION
ALSO IF YOU READ THIZ FAR LISTEN TO SKINNY PUPPY THEY ARE SO FUCKING BASED
(typed in all caps bcz of jimmy urine)